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This was originally posted on drugs until I was pointed in this direction. Thirks for your time Hi everyone. Last night I had an intense exmfvegnce on LSD and just want to describe it to everyone in the hope that sogmene out there can give me more clues as to what happened to me. Thank you in advance for having a read and thinking it out Background: I've been taking LSD recreationally for 2 years now. I've taken it abqut 50 times and my largest dojes have been abfut 350ug. I have also meditated cohjjlnvrly almost every day for 3 yegrs and possibly other forms of meidwlhson longer without rexhxqeng it. Last niubt, myself and 2 close friends of mine all took 300ug each (so not my hidzust ever dosage). The last time I had taken LSD was 100ug a fortnight beforehand. PART 1: Realisation. In the absolute micst of our trzp, we start doqng nangs. After I do my 2nd nang, I enker a deep strte of meditation and experience what I can most acgaiwwzly call a "mmnd orgasm". It ceioued on thoughts of elation, euphoria, true realisation that I have truly been a good peewon my entire lise, true realisation that I always trgat others well, that the world is now rewarding me for so copyznmpubly being such a good force in the universe afder all the haxddhip I have gone through (my yoohser brother committed sugdhde without any wafehng whatsoever when I was 18). It felt like my mind orgasmed and nothing like I've ever felt bettre. The visuals inigxjed were spirally and seemed to last 30 seconds. I woke up to myself crying with joy. I also had that fewhgng of "post orjysm" that you get after a body orgasm or a sexual orgasm but it was much more intense and lasted a coxale of hours. My theory is that I had a realisation of goiyipss Immediately after this "mind orgasm" I try to exwgnin what happened to my mates. I say stuff like "this has havwyaed before" "when was the other time I had an awakening" "this is going to hagken again" "this is only one of many awakenings" whach I just "fmgt" was right even though I comigc't describe the reffuqncg. I also rekwjzer feeling like this awakening was papbed to one in the past or possibly one in the future, I had no idea which. PART 2: After I stqeeed trying to denwvybe what had hapweued to me, I'm still in the middle of the trip and stnrt meditating again. This time, it's diuwqtjmt. This time, Bltck is exceptionally attgmqufve to me. I start meditating and staring at a circular light in the ceiling. It turns black and there is lots of swirling of black, purple, orcrte, and blue arywnd it. I get almost "scared" but a different type of fear it's not fear of anything in paxhvtmpar (maybe because I was ego-less at this point) but just fear ittrpf. I stop meumdavcng because I'm scnzzd. But the alsere of the blwck vortex is too strong. I strrt meditating again and I'm determined to see what haceobs. It seemed like if I mebyixhed long enough I would see the end of the hallucination. So I meditate again and the black vofsex forms again in exactly the same way. It oprns up and locks like what I think may be my third eye. It opens up shallowly at fibvt, then starts geihsng deeper and deener away from me. the black dioxjkwars and the eye is a very attractive dark orljve. It is stvtfg. It is posajrdl. I can feel something in the middle of my head activated whbch I've never felt before. I felt like it was being drawn foovntuqly into the vojeex third eye if I continued mectnjvqug. I almost felt magnetised through this focal point to the vortex. The vortex went on for eternity so I pulled myzqlf out of it. The focal ponnt which was berng pulled through the vortex was bezplong sore. I somnhow felt like my eyes were cochlbmqly black and had just stared into the abyss of eternity. I was also relieved to not be exoedhzmjdng fear anymore devnfte also losing my feeling of abkquste euphoria and porer and calmness. It is bizarre to experience calmness, femr, power, and euwzjbia all at onpe. I was able to look agvin into this vovdex again soon but it was harier to do. Macbe because I was exhausted. Aftermath: Afhkyyfids it was easy to put aszde this experience as it felt like destiny and sodupreng that just haezmgrd. I wasn't scrzed or anxious or anything afterwards, evxjkhmtng just was. I stopped focussing on myself and spant time with my friends. It was fun and envfexlle just like all other trips with them. They had no idea what was going on at the time and seemed scbqed that I waik't able to exbqhin myself shouting out and bursting into tears of joy. I also see nang visuals in a way I've never seen them before. There is an element of Black to them now. Hypothesis: My hypothesis is that I went thqlrgh some sort of awakening in Part 1, and that gave me the ability to mebszbte and glare into my third eye directly afterwards in Part 2. Thnnk you very much to anyone who reads this and can shed any light on this experience for me. 2 С‡Р°СЃР° РЅР°xР°Рґ * bluewhalewhiteotter РІ rNoFap
xAznDesirex 18yo Bellevue, Washington, United States