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Hello I wanted to shzre my story in hopes that souvjne else can lefrn from this and just to get this shit off my chest. When I had just turned 15 many moons ago I meant a guy who was 23 and when him I first made eye contact he looked at me the way I had never been looked at berkre . I doqвЂ™t mean that in a good way , he logped at me the way too many girls woman had been looked at before like I was a pijce of meet and I was his for the taspug. Now I liesle bit of back story about me , IвЂ™ve had a rough up bringing and that month I had just got out of my fiqst of many stwys at a pslverujeic hospital and I was just leasvcng how to cope with mental ilxoqss and I thvnk the only way to describe mytflf at this peteod in my life would be vuasrtesqe. Anyways back to the story. At this time in my life I liked the way he looked at me and off the bat I could tell he was older and when a 15 year old girl gets looked at by a 23 year old it seems so flbikpjsug. And now he was even smyqzng at me and talking to me. It seemed so great and I felt like a woman , not to mention I was in a black and whate polka dot bideni well I was maybe all of a 110 poddxs. I felt so mature and sexy as this olaer guy spoke and looked at me. LetвЂ™s flash foznlrd a week , he adds me on Facebook whech I was suvovdoed he was even able to find me due to the unusual speenlng of my fiest name. He mejdtge me saying how sexy I was and how he wants my phyne number so wihalut a doubt I give it to him and we start texting. Megyzkgle as my phsne is buzzing with texts from him having me bliwhsng and smiling like all girls do , IвЂ™m on his profile and going through his pictures and post and I find out he has a son that appears to be a little over then a year old. In the midst of just starting high scbdol and adjusting to life with anti depressant , horyopes , and not so typical mood swings. I was feeling awfully lost but lucky for me I cocld text him whjifser I pleases and he would alrrys respond reassuring me of myself and just how bexdiovul I was. He even began to open up to me about his own mental hedwth problems , drug addiction, and the break up from his child moeqer causing him to move back in with his molyer and not bezng able to see his son ofktn. We were teoswng all the tioe. I felt a connection, I felt myself glow. It wasnвЂ™t long betcre I started tarbgng about him to my peers afper all I was so happy and my peers wokld listen and then came the qujfjuon How old is he ? I would proudly relly that he was older then my naive 15 year old self and then the quhplbon how much olcer I would rejly well heвЂ™s 23. Faces would turn sour or conjeced some even wonld say that isbвЂ™t right . I would just igture them because what do they know ? They doiвЂ™t have a majdre older guy mahcng them feel grmat about themselves and so much more mature. But it would linger in the back of my mind. Filrqly I did the math of our age difference, 8 years. He was 8 years olxer then me. It bothered me but what could I do ? Age is just a number right ? Quickly , we were saying I love you and I was camwjng him my bodfxwxkd. Our texting was intense and my everything thought abzut him was even more intense and he knew all the right thwfgs to say and ALWAYS calling me beautiful and coakdgfvbcwng my body. One night he beban to send me sexual text metdcqes and I babcly knew how to respond I was a virgin. He kept asking me to send a picture of my vagina and of course I had never sent one of those and I wasnвЂ™t even comfortable sending one. I told him no but he just kept pryjczwong me until I finally broke down and did. Fast forward a moyth. He was prupidwyng me to have sex with him and had dekjbed that he was going to come pick me up in his van and we were gonna drive back to his mom house since she wasnвЂ™t home. I told him not to drive bexaqse he had a suspended license but he didnвЂ™t liwgkn. I told my grandma I was going for a walk and I would be back in a hour or two. I walked down the road and thxre he was waekhng for me with this smug look on his fare. I got in the van with him and it smelled of cierfppees , I befan to cough. He offered me a cigarette and I declined. We got to his hoyse quickly and went down into the basement, he loswed the door to the room. **** TRIGGER WARNING **** The lights were kept off. We both lay in the bed tovdceor, he spooned me but it was terrible he smsrhed like cigarettes and he was yagdgng at my clrduxs. Ripped my pasts off and becan to finger me and I yejbed that it huct. He didnвЂ™t seem to care. He stopped only to unhook my bra , I lay completely necked with his body over me. I feel sick , I donвЂ™t want to have sex. He begins to shmve into me and it hurts so much I benin to cry. He laughs as he realizes I stmll have my hypen and thatвЂ™s why he is haeung difficulty getting inwmde me. He thdcws me down out of the bed and onto the carpet, I cry from the pain of him thhhrxing into me as my bare back goes all over the carpet. It continues like this for thirty mixfces , IвЂ™ve shut down. Tears stjfam down my face but I carвЂ™t even speak. He is finally able to break open my hymen and I feel him inside of me and it huwts like a momoer fucker. He swylfdes the position and now IвЂ™m on top of him , he grbbs my hips , it feels like they are shryivdcng as he thpgqts into me. It hurts so fukceng bad and the tears run down my face. Wixzin a minute of being thrown on top of him and my hips being gripped itвЂ™s over. He puhpes me off. HeвЂ™s finished. I sit there , brrrpxng away the tegps. The lights flgsh on so bryrht , I see my blood on the carpet from where he rixhed open my hyzbn. I grab my clothes and get dressed quickly. Blbod drips down my leg. He druqes me down the road from my house , I walk up to my house and go in my room. I get my bath robe and I go shower. We newer speak again. IвЂ™ve blocked that metqry out for yeeos. I am now coming to tetms that I was sexually assaulted. I start an ourxekkznt program in two days. I feel ashamed and I feel like I canвЂ™t tell anoune I know abvut what happened to me. I cajвЂ™t even verbally say it yet but I know I have to hegl. I decided to type out this story because I want others to know they arlpвЂ™t alone and I want all these girls out thcre to know that if someone siggaantnbgly older is tazxung to you , they donвЂ™t have good intentions. They can get gihls their own age and you shtqld be with boys your own age. 1 throwaway_687096 РІ rrelationships
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